HE CAME FOR ME
He came upon me suddenly
I had no time to prepare
One minute I was alone in my thoughts
And the next minute He was there
My life has been a disappointment
Not only to others but also to me
I knew I wasn’t worthy of His love
So I couldn’t bear to turn and see
I could feel Him staring at me
Waiting for me to turn
But I just couldn’t look at Him
And my emotions began to churn
I used to believe in Him
So I was afraid this day would come
But I wasn’t remotely ready for it
My life had become so glum
I quietly hoped He would just leave me
That He would turn and walk away
But He didn’t make any attempt to leave
It was evident He meant to stay
I began to tremble
Still unable to turn and look
My tears began to fall freely
Wishing my life was a closed book
But I could feel His love probing
Seeking to tear down my wall
I resisted, knowing I was not worthy
I fought His persistent call
Why is He even here
How did He find me
I couldn’t be worth His time
I’d much rather flee
I am so unworthy of Him
My life is such a mess
I’m embarrassed He is even here
I have no desire to confess
How could He love me
After all I’ve done
I know my life has pained Him
But surely I can’t be the only one
Can’t He find someone else
Someone more worthy than me
Can’t He leave me to wallow alone
Can’t He find someone else to free
My power to resist His love weakens
I can sense how much He cares
How long can I hold out
How long can I ignore His stares
At last I know He will not go away
The next part is mine to choose
For the first time in ever so long
His love I don’t refuse
I turn slowly
My eyes focused on the ground
He waits for me to meet His gaze
As I wrestle with him who holds me bound
At last, His love pulls my eyes upward
A moment I never imagined would come
His love begins to wash over me
And to it I succumb
He is smiling at me
Such a smile I’ve never seen
He reaches for me in tender embrace
Oh how I wish I was clean
I sob and sob
Until my sobs subside
He never speaks but holds me still
Until my tears have dried
His first words to me
I’ll remember ’til time is no more
“I love you” He said
How could you, I wanted to implore
How could you love someone so unclean
I’m worthless, as you know
Why did you even come for me
It would be so easy just to let me go
He made it ever so clear to me
That I wasn’t worthless, but divine
He had already paid my price
And my life He could refine
He was so tender with me
What I thought I’d feel faded away
Why had I resisted this so long
Why had I held Him so long at bay
It’s clear that His love alone
Is only my starting place
There is still much I need to do
Still a long way to run in my race
But now I have clear reason to run
My heart is filled with hope
He came just for me
With His help I believe I can cope
At last He released His embrace
Knowing He’d reached my heart
I yearn for that day yet to come
When we’ll never again have to part
The words to this poem came to me one morning while studying and pondering the scriptures. They came quickly and I had a strong impression this poem was being written for someone who would desperately need it and someday read it and have the Spirit witness to them the reality and power of the Savior’s love and that they were not beyond the influence of that love or of His ability to heal them from all of their pain, loss, guilt, or anything else of a negative nature. With all my heart, I hope that impression was true and that someday, somewhere, someone will find hope in these words sufficient to persuade them to allow the Savior into their life. If so, they will never be the same. Of that I am certain, I know it for myself.